be honest.. i am not that happy.. esp in this moment... hv you heard of the unhappiest in the world? when you r surrounded by lots of ppl, even more they r ur family, and at the end, you feel the most isolated and depressed in the world... they do not mean to make me feel so... just... as random... they make me question whether i pick up sth right... i follow wht i wanna do.. n the right route i think n it seems that my parent does not think so.. they r proud of me... n as always, they think i should get a better offer... today, they just ask me a question coz they 'mistakenly' opened my account statement n saw the salary i got last month they thought the boss was just too harsh... n even thought that i was being fooled they asked me, 'has the boss dealt with you abt the offer?' i said, 'no, just in case less that 10K, i will just leave.' mom said, 'oh.. you finally "think open jor"' to wht extent do u think i am that fool n stupid? pls do give me some trust... i'm not that fool to always be volunteer... i know wht i'm doing.. and i expect that you guys could support wht i do... whtever you say, by heart or not, at the end, every words come from ur heart... n they r true n at the end, those words hurt me a lot when y guys r now singing karaoke, i am sitting in one corner, facing the monitor and typing the lonely xanga when i'm surrounded by u guys, i know i am alone at least, tonite am i doing sth right? i just question myself... | 
